Amy spends the night at my house and Leah shows up the next morning.  We are having our reception at 3:00 p. m. and it’s 2:45.  I start freaking out because we only have 15 minutes before the wedding and no one is dressed, the photographer isn’t there, so no pictures of us getting ready are taken, etc.  So I tell my mom and everyone else to just leave.  I’ll get ready and show up.  I tell my mom to tell Jamie that I’m just running late so he doesn’t think I’m not going to show up.

            I get ready to leave and I show up at the ceremony just in time.  Jamie and I go outside before it starts and sit on the stairs and just start talking.  (I’m just sitting outside on the stairs in my dress!!)  Then I think, “Wait a minute, I’m not supposed to be seeing him beforehand!”  Anyway, our Reverend tells us she’s ready to begin and we get up.  Then I remember that I don’t have my tiara!  I really wanted to wear it, so I told Jamie I’d be right back, I just had to run home.  He said okay.

            So I actually run home.  I leave my car at the site and run home.  I can’t find the tiara anywhere!  Then for some reason I think it might be someplace down the street, so I run off to find it.  I search and search and finally find it.  I’m on my way back to the ceremony when the road is closed because there is construction going on.  The guys won’t let me through because it’s closed and I said, “But I’m just running through.  I’m not driving!”  But they won’t let me go anyway.  So I say, “Forget this.” and I take off running through the mud and all the construction.  Well one of the guys gets mad and picks me up and puts me over his shoulder.  I start flailing my arms and legs hitting him.  I’m wearing my dress the whole time and I’m trying to explain to them that I’m trying to get to my wedding, but they won’t listen.

Somehow I get out of his grasp and I take off running again.  Of course I can’t run fast in my dreams unless I run backwards, so I run backwards all the way back to the ceremony.  It’s now 2:30 p. m. and I’ve been gone for 1 ½ hours (because apparently time goes backwards in my dreams)!  When I get there, our Reverend is gone, and I see Jamie and he’s dancing at the reception.  I said, “Well, what about the ceremony?” and he says, “You were late.  Don’t worry about it.  We’re just going to have the reception.”  So I’m okay with this until I remember that we didn’t send out or ever order our invitations.  We have no favors, etc.  But some people are there anyway.  So we start dancing and going about our wedding celebration, and no one even cared that that couldn’t really happen because we didn’t even get married!  We were celebrating a marriage that never took place.  Just crazy.  J

            I went to pick up my dress and Jamie went with me.  It was in a see through bag and he saw it.  After all the trouble I went through to make sure I didn’t give him any details about my dress, he saw it anyway.  >:(  I was not happy about this.

            The bridesmaids dresses all came in and I was up there with Colleen and she tried on her dress and it was huge.  Way too big.  All of the dresses were too big for everyone.  And they had sleeves on them.  They all kind of resembled a robe, just the way they were all big and bulky and how they looked on.  Yuck.

This dream was very short.  Amy showed up at my house and I told her that I was tired of waiting for the wedding, so we were moving the date up to January 7th (which, as it turns out had not only already passed, but it was a Wednesday).  She told me we couldn't switch the date and I told her we were anyway.

Then I was out somewhere with my dress and all these people kept touching it.  "It's so pretty.  It's so beautiful." and I'm thinking to myself, "Stop touching my dress!!"

How fun!  Even friends are having dreams about my wedding now!

Colleen had a dream that everyone threw me and Jamie a co-ed wedding shower together at a club.  Jamie and I were dressed very casually while the wedding party was all decked out in their dresses and tuxes.

Apparently everyone starts dancing and there's disco lights and stuff and Jamie and I sneak away and no one can find us.  Colleen says she'll go find us, and she goes downstairs in like the basement of the club.  There's a whole bunch of rooms down there so she just starts knocking on doors.  She gets to the room where we were and when she knocked we were inside and I was "shushing" Jamie telling him she wouldn't be able to hear us.  So she stands outside and says, "I know you're in there.  I can hear you!"  Then I get up and walk to the door and I'm about to open it when she tells me not to worry because she's the only one down there.  Then while I'm deciding apparently she calls in everyone else downstairs.  She tells them that she found us and she shooed everyone downstairs so when I opened the door everyone was standing there.  I think that's where it ended.

In this dream, it was either February 10th and I was suddenly getting married on February 30th (which doesn't exist), or it was May 10th, and I was getting married on May 30th.  Either way, I had only twenty days left.

I was at my house freaking out.  "How could this happen?  I just had over 100 days, now suddenly I'm down to twenty!"  I kept repeating this over and over.

I was talking to my co-worker Rhonda who was at my house (actually the dream took place at my grandmother's old house) and I said, "I suppose I should get my dress in to get it altered soon!  I should also probably look through the petticoats that Amy lent to me to see which one I want to use."  Rhonda said, "Okay.  Good luck with that.  I'll see you at the fair," and then she left.

Then I told my mom to put on her dress so we could start doing alterations on it.  She comes out wearing this dark blue taffeta dress that is way too tight and way too short.  It's like a stripper mom dress.  I said, "Where's the dress we got for you?"  She said, "I didn't like that one so I sent it back.  This one's much better."  Uh huh.  Okay.  Because stripper mom dresses are always appropriate to wear at a wedding.  J

It was the day of the wedding.  Jamie and I were still getting married, except I was wearing a bridesmaid's dress along with the other girls.  I was running around trying to get all this stuff done at the last minute.  Everyone was ready to go but me.

Finally it's about five minutes before the wedding.  We're all hanging around in this big house, which must have been the "bridal suite" and our neighbor is there and he says, "It's time!  It's too late for you to get ready.  You'll have to get married like that and worry about the dress afterwards."  I got mad!  So Jamie stands up for me and says, "She's been doing last minute things for the wedding!  We'll wait for her!"

So I ask all the bridesmaids to help me.  I need to put on my dress, I need someone to fix my hair because it's just a big, poofy, tangled mess, and I have a weird rash on my face that I'm hoping someone can conceal with makeup.  I walk into the room and say, "Can you girls help me?"  Instead of jumping right in, they sit there all agitated and complain.

This dream started off with my bridesmaids throwing me a bridal shower.  I was on my way to the shower, but I couldn't find my camera, which I, of course, wanted to take with me.  Then I didn't have any film left.  I was running late and couldn't remember where I was going, so I called Jamie to get directions from him and he told me to just follow the beltway and when I saw the exit, I'd know it.  Okay...

Then suddenly I was at work.  It was the day of the wedding and I was wearing my dress to work because as soon as work was over, I was leaving right away to go get married.  So I kept running up and down the stairs in my dress, but I had it bustled, so that helped a little.  J

I don't remember the whole dream.  I do remember it being the day before the wedding.  I was running around trying to make sure everything was done.  I was going over in my head everything to take with me the next day:  my dress, two pairs of shoes, my veil, tiara, etc.

Then I remembered that despite my asking him for it many, many times, Jamie never gave me his guestlist, which means that none of his family or friends had received an invite and they wouldn't be there.

Of course when I told him this when I woke up, he only said, "How sad" and when I asked him for his guestlist, he said, "We'll see".  So I don't think I'll be too surprised if only my friends and family show up at the wedding because they'll be the only ones who get invites.

In this dream, I decided that I wanted to switch the bridesmaids dresses.  Sure, everyone had already ordered and received their dresses, but I wanted to switch to the original ones that I liked from David's Bridal.  The dream was fast, but included me and Krista (I think) at David's.  She had on the real dress and I kept holding up the other one saying, "No, I like this one more!"

Of course I didn't choose those dresses for a reason.  1.  I liked the ones we got better, and 2.  they were too heavy for a spring wedding.  The ones I picked are just perfect.

It was the day before the wedding, as usual.  I was at work, (it was a Friday).  Apparently there were a whole bunch of "brides - to - be" at my job, so they had everyone go home and draw a picture of their dress and bring it in to work to hang up on the wall in a meeting area.

So I show up with my picture.  Of course it wasn't an exact picture, but it looked really great!  I had, however, forgotten to draw the back of it, and I didn't have any more room, so they told me I could draw it on the refrigerator.  I just decided to hang up what I had on the wall.  Then, in walks a co-worker, who decided that she would not draw a picture of her dress, but would instead wear her dress to work for everyone to see.  She shows up in this big Santa like coat.  When she takes it off, underneath is a huge red and greed plaid dress.  I just started laughing.

Then I was in the cafeteria, running around like a crazy person trying to get things cleaned up before I would leave.  I kept thinking, "I can't believe it's the day before the wedding!  How did it get here so fast?"

There were a bunch of co-workers standing outside the room and I could hear them saying, "I feel so bad.  Jennifer's leaving on Monday and I didn't even get her a card."

Then the dream did a complete switch and I was at home.  Colleen called and told me she was going shoe shopping for the wedding and asked if I wanted to go with her.  How could I pass up shoe shopping?  I said yes!

So we go to a store and I find a great pair of shoes for around $25 that I just had to have.  They had a slight open toe in the middle, with the sides of the toes covered.  I loved them!  So I bought them and then when I got home, I realized that the heal on the shoe had gotten a lot bigger.  The heal was about four inches!  I got really upset because clearly this would not work for the wedding. I would be towering over Jamie!  So I decided I had to take the shoes back, which really upset me because I really liked them.  However, I still had two more pairs of shoes at home that I was going to wear for the wedding, so no big deal.

In this dream, it was the day of my bridal shower.  I remember that only about a few people were there.   Amy, me, my mom, Leah, Krista (I think), my friend, Tova, and my 7th grade English Teacher, Mrs. Baxter - Peyton.

Not much happened except we all sat around outside at my old house and opened gifts.  Someone had brought a shopping cart with them so that I could put all the stuff I received in it and then just push it all inside.  As it turns out, I could have easily carried everything inside.  I got about 5 gifts.  Jamie's mom and aunt did not show up, but they brought up a set of metal silverware (and knowing me, I'd probably never use it!  I prefer plastic table settings!).  I don't remember what else I got, but I do remember that Tova got me a baby rattle, which really kind of freaked me out!  I was getting married, I wasn't pregnant!  From what I remember, I got other baby stuff too (like a blanket or some toys or something), but I can't remember exactly what they were.

The whole time I was there, I didn't talk to my teacher at all.  My mom told me she was mad because her invite had the wrong address on it (apparently I had addressed and sent out the invites).  The invite obviously found its way to her, but she was still upset.

            Another short dream.  Jamie and Rich were sitting on my mom's bed watching TV.  I walked in and Jamie says, "Oh, I called all your friends and told them they couldn't come to the wedding."

Krista had a dream that I called her up and told her that I had had a dream the other night and someone in my dream told me not to marry Jamie, so I was calling off the wedding.  Apparently I kept apologizing over and over to her for her buying a dress when I wasn't even getting married.

I just think that's funny.  I'm calling off the wedding because someone in my dream told me not to marry Jamie, not even someone in real life.

Well, in real life about a week ago, I went in for my second dress fitting and the dress had been altered way too small.

Last night in my dream, I went back to try it on for my third fitting and I don't remember how it fit, but I do remember that the dress was messed up because you could see all the stupid pin pricks in the fabric from where they took the dress in and then had to let it back out.  I just kept thinking, "My dress is ruined!"

Hopefully when I go back on April 30th, it'll be done right and it won't look ridiculous.

This was really the only dream that has upset me and left me feeling very sad when I woke up.

It was the day of the wedding, and a girl Sarah, on the Weddings board on Ivillage was helping me get ready.  I remember that she told me to wear my tennis shoes because my feet would feel better.  Then I was off to be married that fast!  The wedding part was a blur.  I took three steps down the aisle then we were eating, then we were waking up the next morning and I turned to Jamie and said, "That's it?"  He said, "That's it!"  I said, "Well I don't remember anything about the wedding!  What happened?"  And it's true.  I couldn't remember anything.  We were staying at a hotel that apparently the wedding was held in and it seemed as though a lot of our guests were as well.  We were walking around the next morning and I had a whole bunch of people I don't know come up and tell us the reception was amazing and so much fun!  I was so sad because I couldn't remember it!

I turned to Jamie and said, "Well, what about the favors?  I don't even remember handing them out!  Did anyone like them?"  He said, "Oh yeah!  Everyone loved them!"  So I said, "Oh yeah?  What did they say?"  He replies with, "Oh... well... George's parents I guess liked them." and that was it!  How does that convert into everyone liked them?"

I said, "I don't even remember the ceremony!  I didn't even get to give you your ring!"  He said, "Oh stop!  You did too!"  I look down at my hand and I'm only wearing my engagement ring.  I said, "You can see just how much the wedding bands mean to us!  We're not even wearing them!"

It was just one big mess.  I felt like I had lost my memory or something.  I started crying in the dream and when I first woke up I didn't realize yet that it was only a dream.  I actually started crying to think that I couldn't remember anything about our wedding!  I was so relieved when I opened my eyes and looked around and saw that I hadn't missed anything!  We still had 28 days left!