So last night I was going out with some friends and dropped my mom off at a nearby park that was in front of some woods.  I went off for girls night with Amy #2 and Leah and told her I'd pick her up later.  I went home that night but forgot to pick her up.  By the time I remembered, it was dark and I went back to the park but she wasn't there.  I remember being very scared, I felt terrible and didn't know where she was.  I was hoping she had walked home, but when I arrived back home she had not.  The next morning still no mom so I started calling all the presets on her phone.  The first person I got was a man who I didn't know.  He told me my mom was probably at the drug and alcoholic clinic.  He called over there and that's where she was, so I went to pick her up and she was quite surprised to see me when she came out.

Then Jamie went to work and Ralph started yelling at him about getting his priorities straight and about how he cannot take three days off of work for his MIL.  Jamie informed him that his mother, not his MIL was in the hospital and that's why he took the time off.

 Interpretation:

To dream that you are at a park, represents a temporary escape from reality. It indicates renewal, meditation, and spirituality. It is also an indication of a readjustment period after a serious personal conflict or an ending of a passionate affair. 

To see your mother in your dream, represents the nurturing aspect of your own character. Mothers offer shelter, comfort, life, guidance and protection. Some people may have problems freeing themselves from their mothers and are thus seeking their own individuality and development.

To see your friends in your dream, signifies aspects of your personality that you have rejected, but are ready to integrate these rejected part of yourself.  The relationships you have with those around you are important in learning about yourself. Additionally, this symbol foretells of happy tidings from them and the arrival of good news.

To see or hear a telephone in your dream, signifies a message from your unconscious or some sort of telepathic communication. You may be forced to confront issues which you have tried to avoid. Alternatively, the telephone represents your communication and relationship with others.

Mood:  down

Of all the scary dreams I have, the most terrifying are being chased by my crazy ex-boyfriend.  Once again, last night, he was out to hurt me.  I don't know how we ran into each other, but once we did, he wouldn't let me out of his sight.  I knew my only hope for survival was to try to trick him, so I let him think that I was interested and then ran away at my first available chance.  As usual, in my dreams, I cannot run fast enough and he always caught up to me.  This continued throughout the dream:  like him, run away, get caught, like him, run away, get caught.  I even ran into a coffee shop urging people to call 911, but no one would.  One woman took pity on me and let me get in her sports car as she attempted to speed us away from him, but he still caught us.

As usual, I woke up terrified.

Interpretation:

To dream that you are being chased, signifies that you are avoiding a situation that you do not think is conquerable. It is often a metaphor for some form of insecurity.

Chase dreams often stem from feelings of anxiety in your walking life. The way we respond to anxiety and pressure in real life is typically manifested as a chase dream. Running is an instinctive response to physical threats in our environment. Often in these dream scenarios, you are being pursued by some attacker, who wants to hurt or possibly kill you. You are running away, hiding, or trying to outwit your pursuer. Chase dreams may represent your way of coping with fears, stress or various situations in your waking life. Instead of confronting the situation, you are running away and avoiding it. Ask yourself who is the one chasing you and you may gain some understanding and insight on the source of your fears and pressure.

The pursuer or attacker who is chasing you in your dream may also represent a part of yourself. Your own feelings of anger, jealousy, fear, and possibly love, can assume the appearance of threatening figure. You may be projecting these feelings onto the unknown chaser. Next time you have a chase dream, turn around and confront your pursuer. Ask them why they are chasing you.

To dream that you are running away from someone, indicates an issue that you are trying to avoid. You are not taking or accepting responsibility for your actions. In particular, if you are running from an attacker or any danger, then it suggests that you are not facing and confronting your fears. 

To dream that you are trying to run but cannot make your feet move as fast as you want them to, signifies lack of self-esteem and self-confidence. It may also reflect your actual state of REM paralysis while in the dream state.

It seems to me that I'm either annoyed (still) about the situation with my mom, or scared immensely about what will happen with Jamie's mom.

Mood:  sad

It's quite sad that I have had about two years since I've posted regularly.  How many dreams have I missed that I will never remember?

Last night I was quite busy.  First, I was being chased by a dinosaur.  I've had this dream since I was a child, but it always remains the same that the terror is extraordinary.  Trying to run and hide all the while knowing they could eat you and you'll be dead.

Interpretation: 

To see a dinosaur in your dream, symbolizes an outdated attitude. You may need to discard your old ways of thinking and habits.

To dream that you are being chased by a dinosaur, indicates your fears of no longer being needed or useful. Alternatively, being chased by a dinosaur, may reflect old issues that are still coming back to haunt you.

 In another dream, Dingo's past owner called me up and told me they wanted her back.  I told them I wanted to keep Dingo, she was happy where she was, and I would not be giving her back.  They became insistent.  I came into work to talk to Eric who told me that I'd have to give Dingo back to her original owner at least for now, an I could take them court if I felt necessary.  I told him to start drawing up the lawsuit because I was not giving my dog up.

The last dream was that Hugh had hired two new employees at work and then pulled me aside to tell me that Jessica and I would be working the night shift as he was now going to 24 hour days.  I told him I would not be working the night shift and that it didn't make any sense for me to do so.  I explained to him that he needed someone here during the day who knew what they were doing and that the new people should be put on the night shift when no one would be calling them.  I also told him that this had not been cleared with me and I was not okay with it.  He refused to budge so I told him I would either a) stay on the day shift, b) quit and give two weeks notice or c) quit now and walk out.  He wouldn't answer me, so I told him I was leaving.  As I was packing up my stuff he was surprised that I was actually leaving over somthing so small.

Mood:  rushed

It was the first day of my new job.  I got up and got ready, and started my new commute to work.  I am to be there at 8:30, so I left at 7:30.  Plenty of time!  However, I knew I was going to be late half an hour later when I had only managed to make it two blocks!!  At this point I realized that I didn't have a lunch, I didn't have my mug of water with me and I wasn't even dressed appropriately.  I was wearing jeans and one sock.  So I said, "Screw this" and went back home, where I showered, got dressed (running around like crazy tyring to find a second sock!  LOL).  I made my lunch and finally made it out the door at 8:40.  Definitely I was going to be late for my first day.  LOL.  Then suddenly that dream ended.

I had a dream then that I spent hours making a new signature for an Ivillage friend.  She didn't ask me to, but I wanted to surprise her.  After all my work, I decided not to send it to her because I was afraid she'd think I was trying to replace her original signature with one of my own.

Then I was back at home, but not our house.  Well, not our house now, but our house in my dreams.  And this is the second time I've dreamed of this house.  I was running up to our bedroom (on the third floor), I think still trying to get ready for work again!  When I realized that I hadn't looked around the house since the first time I dreamed about it.  (Weird how sometimes I know I'm dreaming and other times I do not.)  The house is beautiful.  Three floors, like six bedrooms.  The whole third floor is our bedroom, the second floor has four bedrooms and a deck.  In the first dream about the house, we had originally moved in and picked this gigantic room on the second floor as our bedroom, but as the dream went on we realized it was a haunted room, so while we were hosting a party in the backyard, I was moving all of our furniture out of that bedroom and upstairs to the third floor.  So I walked down the hallway last night to get a look at our old bedroom, and there it was in all it's beautiful glory.  Just a wonderfully huge bedroom, but I reminded myself that it was haunted and that we did not want to sleep there.  I looked around and there were a ton of candles in there.  I love candles and am always buying more and more, so to find a whole room filled with candles was a nice surprise, however I realized that since the room was haunted, probably the ghosts were controlling the candles as well.  I was afraid if I used them the house would burn down thanks to the ghosts, so I left them alone.  LOL.  I then walked over to the door to the deck and apparently it had been awhile since anyone had been down that far.  We had vines and such growing up the side of the house and into the screen door.  Little Guy (one of our cats) was sitting there eating the grass that was growing into the house and I realized that we needed to spend more time down here grooming the outside to keep this from happening!  I woke up shortly after that.

Mood:  rushed
There have been a ton of dreams that I have not recorded recently. Of course now I don't remember them, so I'll try to do better.

Last night Jamie and I were leaving for our trip, but we kept getting side tracked. It was time to leave and I hadn't even packed yet, so I started freaking out and trying to remember what I needed - pants, shorts, sandals, tennis shoes, etc. I'm throwing everything into my bag and when I'm done I realize that my face is dry and I need my moisterizer, which is at the bottom of my bag under my two weeks worth of clothes, so I'm not sure what to do. While I'm trying to figure that out because I don't want to dig through it all, Jamie disappears because he has to take care of something. Time keeps passing and more things keep happening. When he returns I leave for work for some super silly reason I'm sure. I'm at work trying to leave and get home, and I keep getting pulled aside with people who need me to do something right away. By the time I got home and everything settled down and we grabbed everything we needed, we were leaving 20 hours later than we wanted to.

Mood:  spacey
A couple of dreams here. In the first one I think Leah offers to give me Ben because she doesn't want him anymore and she thinks that I do want a kid. I feel really bad because I really don't want him either. I know she's going to get rid of him if I don't take him, so I'm not quite sure what to do.

Then I'm hanging around with some friends and we're all discussing permanent birth control solutions. Many of them are discussing the Essure method and they all seem pretty interested. Then my friend, Kristen, an old co worker tells us that she has already had the procedure done. I am shocked about this as she is only 23, and I know most doctors will not do the procedure when you are that young and do not already have any children. So I'm asking her how she managed to get it done, and she just said that she had researched all of her options and told her doctor why she had chosen to get it done.

Next Jamie and I are on our trip again. We have just left and have already arrived at our first hotel room. We check in, but then I realize that there are like five other hotel chains at the exact same intersection that we did not check out first. I call the Hampton Inn across the street to see how much a room is. The receptionist asks me how much I'm willing to pay. I tell her $82. She thinks about this and then says okay. I say great, thank her, and hang up. I tell Jamie it's $82 and I start to gather up our things when he stops me and says, "What about this hotel room we already have? If we leave now, we lose the $82 we spent for this room." Oh yeah! I forogt we already had a room! So I say forget it and we stay.

At this point I realize that we didn't bring the book with us of places to visit in America - the book that Jamie got me for our first anniversary. I'm very upset about this as I never want to leave without the book ever again. However, then I realize that I haven't given my mom any kind of feeding instructions for our fish, or even our turtle! She could probably figure out the fish - but having never cared for a turtle, I'm not sure. I'm very upset about this and decide we have to go home to make sure everything is taken care of when I wake up.

Mood:  mischievious
I had this dream very early in the morning. There were a whole bunch of people in our yard and around our house - even on our house! It was like a church congregation and they were sitting on our roof and our lawn and just everywhere, singing, and talking, and generally praising the Lord, I guess. I'm not sure why they decided to use our house, but in the middle of this I realize that my car isn't locked. I pick up the alarm fob to lock it and rethink it. Do I really want to disturb their church meeting? But I decide to do so anyway. It's only a very light beep one time to tell me that it's locked, so I hit the lock button and go on my way. A few minutes, seconds, whatever later I hear all this commotion and look outside. They are taking baseball bats and such to my car for interrupting them. Big dents are in the sides of the car, the roof, the windows are busted. They are generally ruining my car. After all is quiet and they have left, I go outside to look at the damage and suddenly it's not my car anymore. Some grey four door is sitting there all smashed up. I don't know whose car it is, but certainly they shouldn't have parked in front of our house! I go back inside. :)

Mood:  not sure
I was at work and we were discussing the merger that is supposed to take place this summer. No one is still sure at this point whether or not our plant is going to stay open. I asked my boss, but even he didn't know.

Also, his boss took away HSE and gave it to another manager to handle. We were strictly in charge of Security at that point.

Mood:  lazy
What a fun dream. Jamie and I were on our trip and we had stopped for the night and found a hotel room. It was just a little room - nothing fancy. But while we were settling in we decided to see if they had any suites with a jacuzzi or hot job. So we went back to the front desk, and they did in fact have such a room. It had a living room, and an entrance right out onto the beach. We decided to splurge and get the room and we went to check it out. As we're walking around in this room - just in awe of how amazing it is, we're trying to decide which room we should stay in for the night. I think our plan was to use both somehow - and just walk down the hall to get back and forth. But then I realize that this suite was just too perfect and there was no way we were going to use the other room. I realize at that point that we had just wasted about $80 on the other hotel room. But we left all our stuff in the suite, and went outside for a walk on the beach.

Mood:  don't ask
My mom and I were outside standing by my car for someo reason when a strange lady we don't know came up to us and started yelling things at us. I don't really remember what she was yelling about or if we even yelled back, but I remember she pulled out a gun and I was understandably scared. I woke up after that.

Mood:  silly
Last night I was at home and I let Tippy out of his tank. He got away from me and took off running. I couldn't catch up with him. He ran down the stairs into the living room where Jamie was sitting. I kept yelling, "Tippy, stop! Tippy, get back here!" I did finally catch him and put him back in his tank, but after chasing him for quite awhile.

There was something else that happened afterwards, but I don't remember it now. I really need to start taking notes when I wake up.

Mood:  irritated
I was at work and we had all gathered around for a meeting. We were being shown a slideshow for some reason by the people in accounting. They touched on being child free by choice and a co worker mumbled something bad about that, so I spoke up and said, "Let me tell you a thing or two about being child free by choice." Then I looked at a coworker in purchasing who was handling this meeting and said, "Oh, are we allowed to make comments about the slide show?" She said no and everyone sat there and stared at me since I had made a commotion, and we were just supposed to be sitting there watching the show - no questions or comments allowed.

Mood:  not sure
I know this dream was about a guy I used to go to high school with - Tom. I remember that I was looking through my year book and I found all these messages that he had written me. Over and over on lots of different pages he had written things to me about wanting to hang out, or just liking me in general. I was just discovering these for the first time, and felt silly that I hadn't seen them sooner. Now I was married and could do nothing about the guy I used to have feelings for. I think I did try to contact him, but either couldn't find him, or decided not to do anything about it.

Mood:  don't ask
I had a dream that a co worker of mine accused me of stealing something, or hurting someone and he wanted to press charges against me even though no one else did. So he took me to court. I was there and told the judge I had no idea what my co worker was talking about. We had a recess and were told to show up the next day.

So the next day I'm running late. And I get a phone call saying if I'm not at the court house by 10:00, they were going to find me guilty. It was like 9:50 at the time, so I started freaking out. Jamie and I jumped in the car and then as I'm turning around, Jamie forgets something and gets out. I debate whether or not to wait for him, and am really upset and nervous at this point. I'll never make it in time. Jamie gets back in the car and someone walking down the street comes up to us and I'm not sure if he tried to hijack our car or what - but he stopped us. I tried to get away, but he wouldn't let go. I remember biting his finger hoping that that would get him to release me, and instead his whole disgusting finger came off in my mouth! It was like biting through jello - very disgusting. I spit it out and tried to get away again. I believe I woke up then and never did make it to the courthouse.

Mood:  irritated
I was hanging out with my ex boyfriend in this dream. I knew my parents didn't want me to be around him, so I tried my best to make sure they didn't find out. We stopped at some candy store, which was also some psychic tarrot card readers business. I looked outside and saw my parents were coming, so I hid in the bathroom hoping they wouldn't come in the store and wouldn't see me. They did both. They also somehow knew I was in the bathroom so I came out and I think my ex was with me and they started yelling at me all upset. So I left and went to some apartment complex across the street where I was apparently living.

Mood:  blue
Very strange dream here. I was hanging out with my friends at my house when my mom pulls me aside and tells me that I'm adopted. I freaked out and started crying. She said, "You always said you wanted to know if you were adopted." So I screamed, "Yeah, I wanted to know - when I was six! You don't tell your child when they're 26 that they're adopted!" So I take off running and go out on the deck. This strange scary man who was supposed to be my father came out after me and I just told him to stay away from me.

I called Jamie to tell him that I was adopted and I was crying and sobbing he said, "Gosh, that sucks." Ha! Where's my support? I told him I was hoping he'd be more supportive and he said he didn't know what to say. I hung up with him and sat on the deck an felt completely alone.

Mood:  don't ask
What a weird dream tonight. I was driving home on the beltway and there was a bus in front of me. Like a trip bus - one of the fancy buses that take you to Atlantic City and New York City, etc. Suddenly I'm on the bus and it's just very weird on there. Almost like a mini city. It was too weird in there - all kinds of weird things going on - so I left and was back in my car. I was just about to go through the toll booth (?? Don't know where that came from - there isn't on on 695) when I saw that some guy at the toll booth was trying to get me to stop. He was pretty scary, so I exited immediately and swerved around the round about exit. Just then someone threw her cat Fluffy out of her car. I felt so bad for the cat that I stopped and picked him up (it was really just a kleenex - bizarre). I found out that Fluffy was no longer living, but I figured he deserved better than to be thrown on the side of the beltway, so I took him anyway. Just then this crazy psycho dog came running after me. He could smell Fluffy and apparently really wanted him. (I'm still on the exit ramp at this point!) He kept jumping up against my car banging against the windows trying to get Fluffy. So I freak out, hit my breaks, spin around, and go the wrong way on the exit ramp. Then I woke up.

Mood:  blue
I don't remember much from this dream. Just that I woke up very scared. We seemed to have a lot of ghosts in our house. Not nice ghosts either, and not any that I knew, not like people who had been in my life and passed away - just mean ghosts that were chasing us.

Mood:  sad
I wish I could remember this dream. I did for a little while, but waited two days to post it and now I cannot remember it.

Mood:  accident prone
My friend Amy (F) and I are at her house watching movies while laying down on her sofa. We decide we're going to go somewhere so we get up and leave and decide to walk there. We're walking down a busy street, and there's snow everywhere so we have to walk in the road as the sidewalks are covered. As we're walking along I drop my engagement ring and wedding band (they fall right off my finger is more like it) and I try to find them. A car comes by and drives over them and my engagement ring gets crushed. I pick them up and somehow magically put my ring back to the shape it was before getting run over and then I dropped the rings again! I think they fell down into a drainage area, so Amy and I are crawling all around trying desperately to find my rings. I can't remember if we found them or not, I think we did. Then we ended up at this very weird bus stop waiting for some bus.